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Saturday, June 12th, 2010
1:00 am	Sticky Post: Navigation, Etc. Hi! This is a sticky post! It will be very useful to you, as it contains a searchable [Ctrl+F] list of all recs I've made in this journal by fandom and type. This is the best way to find what you are looking for. ( Notes ) Fic Recs, by fandom: ( Media Based Fandoms ) ( Real Person Fandoms ) ( Book Based Fandoms ) ( Other Fandoms ) Fic Recs, by type: ( Type: Slash, Gen, Het or Incest ) Meta Recs/Meta: ( Meta Recs ) Last Updated: 23 November 2007 (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
5:48 pm	Fic Recs: Bandslash: FOB, PaTD, MCR, Interband Something my mother says: Kindness doesnt take anymore out of you than indifference. Get on that, world. A few thouroughly fabulous things I've read in the past week: Unreliable Narrators by redbrickrose PaTD, Ryan/Brendon If you’ve thoroughly convinced yourself something is (or isn’t) true, then you aren’t really lying to yourself as long as no one else knows the difference. That’s Ryan Ross’s third rule for narrating your own life. However, narrating your own life requires a certain amount of omniscient self-awareness. So, then, the fact that Ryan is simultaneously consciously in love with Brendon and in denial about it isn’t really a problem. The fact that he can now articulate this and is experiencing actual cognitive dissonance means that the denial piece has stopped working as well as it should and that, well, that could be a problem. Tell Me To Stop by airgoidslv PaTD, Spencer/Brendon, D/s themes Hottest thing I've read in a long time. Also, long, plotty and intense. I have so much love for this story. Spencer feels humiliatingly awkward asking about payment, but this is kind of like tutoring, in a way, and he doesn’t want the issue to come up later, at a less convenient time. “Um,” he tries, gritting his teeth and looking for a way to make this sound like he’s not suggesting Brendon is a prostitute. “Do you need any…compensation? For expenses,or gas, or anything?” To his relief, Brendon just laughs, lips twisting in amusement and eyes bright. “You can feed me sometimes ifyou want,” he offers, “but I’m going to be getting a lot of great sex out of the deal, so.” Spencer can’t seem to stop himself from asking, “How do you know it will be great sex?” Brendon just winks at him. “I have a good sense about these things.” Asking to be Born by lontime_lurker FOB, Pete/Patrick, Mpreg Long, plotty, sweet mpreg. Magical realism FTW, etc, etc. "I'm not enough of a grown-up to handle this," Pete groans as he goes over the chart from the dietitian, trying to calculate whether he's getting enough protein for baby's muscles to develop properly. "You'renot enough of a grown-up to handle this?" cries Patrick in exasperation. "You might be an eternal child and everything, all right,but I'm barely 25 for fuck's sake. How'm I going to be a dad?" But Pete's expression has gone all...melty. "You're going to be a dad," he repeats dreamily, touching a stomach just beginning to soften, and Patrick understands that he's fucked. Drove it Like She Stole It by warmingweather PaTD, Jon/girl!Spencer, genderswap (obviously) This story is... oddly hot. On the night they play a sold-out show in Tampa, Jon breaks up with his girlfriend and Spencer fucks her drum tech. Those two things aren't really related. Vertigo by sori1773 PaTD, Spencer/Brendon, AU AU where Brendon is a pediatritian, Spencer is a journalist, and Ryan is a nurse; long. About as awesome as you'd expect (as long as you were expecting ridiculously awesome). Once Like a Spark by jewels667 PaTD, Spencer/Jon, Ryan/Brendon, College-ish AU thing Authors note says: I wanted to write a story about first love and how it messes you up and changes you. This is what happened. Which I think is a pretty god description. Anothoer longish story -- I seem to be liking them long an plotty lately. Spencer feels a hand on his shoulder, and he turns on his stool to look at the guy sitting next to him. The really, really hot guy sitting next to him. "Hi," hot guy says, and smiles slow and warm and it makes something in Spencer's belly catch fire and twist. "Hi," Spencer says warily, his own smile sliding off his face because this kind of stuff doesn't happen to him. Random really, really attractive strangers with liquid brown eyes and shiny hair don't just randomly strike up conversations with Spencer. Like ever. "Oh hey, no. No. Don't do that," the hot guy says, and Spencer's brow wrinkles in confusion, because he's not doing anything except trying not to make a total ass out of himself. "Smile. You should always smile," the guys says by way of explanation. here there be things you've never known by lalejandra (octette) MCR, Frank/Jamia, ridiculously hot-sweet het Frank and Jamia together make my stomach go all fluttery and happy. This story has much the same effect on me. Also, mcee's newest Jamia picspam provides fabulous visuals to accompany it, if you're into that sort of thing. I have such a ridiculous crush on Jamia. She's so fierce. The girls who are allowed at shows are coat racks. They stand in the fucking back of the venue, and they hold their boyfriends' coats, while the idiot boys jump around. The rest of them, the girls like Jamia, they show up to a couple of shows, try the pit or being pressed u pagainst the barriers, if the clubs even has barriers. They get bottles thrown at their heads, hands on their tits, and spit in their face. They don't usually come back. Existing Unknowning by rossetti PaTD, GSF, D/s themes(!!!) Hot, long, has plot. Soooo good. There's nothing on the surface, nothing tactile that would match the burst capillaries under the skin. The skin's a bit warm in places, over the reddened bits but not the yellowed, but Ryan's not sure if that's their fingers or the bruises themselves. "Do they hurt?" Brendon whispers, keeping his touch and his voice light. "No," Ryan answers, after a pause. "Not really. There's never a lot of pain, or it fades quickly. Then there's just the color under the skin. If you press on them," Ryan shakes his left hand free, puts his thumb over the largest bruise and pushes down until the skin around it is white, "if you press on them, you can feel it again, just for a second." All in Your Mind by Stele3 PaTD, Spencer/Ryan For me, this story is mostly about friendship-love, intertwinning self-ness. Feeling safe. The give and take of the brother-friend-other relationship of Ryan and Spencer, the weird sort of circular peaks of know/unknowning/awareness that Stele's Ryan has. It has a fabulous cadence to it. One of the best things I've read in a while. He didn't worry that Spencer would make fun of him – weirdly, he kind of worried that he wouldn't. Spencer made fun of everyone and everything that wasn't smaller than he was; Ryan still remembered (with a smile) when he'd made Carrie Nelson cry in third grade (she'd totally had it coming, the other kids had even cheered). It'd feel weird if he made an exception for Ryan. (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 13th, 2008
1:21 am	Fic Rec: Bandslash: PaTD Bandslash: PaTD took my kindness for weakness by provetheworst Ryan/Spencer, Spencer-is-in-a-hardcore-band AU So there's this story, right? I put off reading it for a couple days because... I don't know. I've been reading a lot of non-fiction, whatever, but this story is AMAZING. Mindblowing, and I just got around to reading it today and for some reason it doesn't look like many people have, which is obviously a huge oversight. OBVIOUSLY. Anyway, that is this story. Basically, its brilliant, and you need it in your life. Spencer likes to close his eyes as he attacks his drumset, limbs flying fast and vicious. Playing like this used to leave his arms sore for days. He'd wake up exhausted. It's taken a while, but now he's just got broader shoulders and stronger arms and he hardly feels any of it anymore. Their singer, Warren, always laughs and says, "You could really fuck shit up, man, be like totally unstoppable. Man, it'd be hilarious seeing you fuck with some drunken assholes. I don't even know how many people's shit you'd wreck." (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 12th, 2008
9:31 pm	Fic Rec: Bandslash: Interband Bandslash: Interband This Endless Summer Racket by thesamefire Andy/Mikey, Mikey/Pete Lovely, especially the interactions. Exactly the odd sort of romance I'd imagine Andy and Mikey having. They're on the phone for two hours, alternating whispered slices of life with expansive silences, before Mikey interrupts Andy's recounting of the horrors of the day's catering. "I lied, before. When I said I was fine." Mikey breaks off. Andy listens to him breathe for almost a full minute. "I might have fucked up." "Might have?" Mikey sighs. "Well, Gerard's not mad." "I hear a 'but', there." "He hasn't said anything, but it's enough that he knows." "Knows what?" Mikey breathes. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 8th, 2008
5:21 pm	Links, Fic Recs: CWRPS, Bandom: MCR, P!aTD, FOB, Other, Interband This post was started a couple days ago. I am so bad a finishing things lately and I have somewhere between 93 and 98 tabs open right now. BUT, I've read some really amazing stuff lately, so here. Happy-making iowa caucus tom conrad and the obliteration of the fourth wall, which I can find a link for if you want, but. I'm a little scared that I am never going to finish this post. Disturbing This, although since I started this post, this guy's journal has been suspended. Jsquared Real Person Fiction by phaballa Jared/Jensen, Sandy Based on the popslash story, not based on a true story, which explains a lot if you've read it. This story is one of the oddest and most intense and hurty (but not in a heartbreaking way) stories I've read in a while. It's very personal, and meta-ish and at the same time some of the greatest introspection about the workings of fandom and wank in general. I'd highly recommend this. Bandom Girlpants & Boycrushes (Or: I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy and All I Got Were Some Buzznet Photos and a Vegas Show Shoutout) by thirdonebetween Pete/Spencer, Pete/Patrick, Spencer/Travis Pete, like God, works in mysterious ways. My Memory's Not What It Used To Be (But I Like The Idea Of You and Me) by untappedbeauty Ryan/Gabe, Amnesia!fic "What?" Ryan's getting tired of saying that, but really. He kind of can't get past it. "You hit a guy and put his body in the van?" Then, because Brendon is tiny, "Wait, how big is he? Oh my god, did you kill a kid?" "No! It's. I got out of the van to check on him, right? And, like, his head was bleeding a little, but he didn't look too bad. So I poked him." "You poked him," Ryan echoes. Brendon nods. "With a stick. But anyway, I poked him, and all of a sudden, he just...got up! He told me to put his bags in the trunk and take him to JFK, and he got in the back and, like, passed out. Or died. I was too scared to check." Disipline and Punish by Arsenic (arsenicjade) Frank/Mikey, Bob/Gerard, other characters and pairings The fabulous prison AU that is finally finished as of...sometime last week. This story is amazing, anyway. Arsenic has a knack for writing things I would not normally read and making me love them. This is just... one of the best things ever. Long and plotty and really well done h/c, set in a universe that expands and grows with the characters, as they leave prison and continue their lives. this bed (house and head) by disarm_d Spencer/Brendon "What's up?" Brendon asks, and he's being careful. The tone of his voice is careful and quiet, even quieter than the silence of the apartment demands. Brendon walks over to him. He's meandering, weaving around objects and taking his time, like if he gives Spencer enough notice, Spencer won't bolt when he gets close. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
7:14 pm	This is my New Year's Queer, Genderqueer and Trans whatever Post (it's a bit long) So mostly what i've been doing for the past few days in researching gender, genderqueer(1) and trans issues, particularly ftm(2), and trying to con people into driving me to Barnes and Noble so that I can finish reading Gender Outlaw which is really good, and also, I'm sort of in love with Kate Bornstien. I've been sort of meditating on what it means to be genderqueer, because that's what I've called myself for ages but lately I've been feeling like I don't have the proper theory background to back that up. I've been struggling with conceptualising myself as genderqueer, and how that impacts the other social identity catagories I consider myself a part of. I am a part of the queer community, and I don't have a problem calling myelf queer in any sense, but when you get down to labling my sepecific type of queerness - gay, lesbian, bi, pan, omni, etc - I have problems. I'm not gay, lesbian or bi, despite the fact that I consider myself a part of the lesbian community, because all of those titles acknowledge and reinforce the gender binary(3) construct, which I reject. I usually define my sexuality as pan(4), which is technically a true assesment, but I feel like it is an incomplete one. (and I'm not sure what I mean by that, either.) --- I also feel like I have a lot of internalised gender issues. The issues I have are probably the same ones that most people have, but still. I don't want to be that person, I hate that person. I think a lot of the conflict I keep having about this, and the reason I am so obsessed right now is that my fear of transgressing gender and my desire to, and my conviction that it is a social construct which can and should be disregarded, and my fear that I'm actually a bigot (which even I can admit is probably ridiculous) get all tangled up in each other and confused. And I tend to retreat into logic when I'm freaked out, hence my recent labeling/semantics frenzy. Anyway, the english language is so painfully incapable of describing what I want it to describe, as limited by our culture as it is, and I just. I'm having identity issues. The problem is I can define myself by what I'm not, but I can't define myself by what I am because I don't know the word for it, or even if there is one. I am not female, or male, or gay or straight or lesbian. I'm not particularly butch or femme, but I hesitate to call myself androgynous/ an androgene because it tends to reaffirm our gender system; this is the same problem I have with genderqueer, even thought I like the word and the concept. Meh, I don't know. I'm running out of ways to fail to articulate this. So, my pretty flisties, what are your thoughts on the matter of gender? Do you believe it exists naturally or is it a construct, and why? --- 1. genderqueer 2. ftm 3. gender binary 4. pan --- I've been reading a lot, obviously in bookstores, but also trolling around online, and oogling books on amazon. ( Some interesting things I've found [both directly related, and tangential] ) (Comment on this)
Friday, December 21st, 2007
10:48 am	Fic Rec: Bandslash: MCR Bandslash: MCR Third Wheel by 7iris Frank/Bob/Jamia, kidfic Best. Thing. Ever. Frank held the phone to Bob's ear. "Um, hi," Bob said. "Hi," Jamia said, laughing. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." "No, it's cool—it's not like Frank's going to keep this a secret. I'm pregnant." "Oh,"Bob said. He sat up; it didn't seem like the kind of conversation he should have flat on his back. Frank shifted around and ended up in his lap, and Bob didn't push him off. "That's, wow—Congratulations, you guys. That is awesome." Bob hadn't thought it was possible, but Frank's smile got even brighter. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 20th, 2007
11:58 pm	Fic Rec: Bandslash: Interband Bandslash: Interband Questionable Moral Authority (the evil scientist AU) by DF (formerlydf) P!atD, FOB, Ryan/Brendon, Pete/Patrick, implied Jon/Spencer Spencer stopped him with a hand, turned and looked at Jon. "You've signed the waivers, so if you break confidentiality on anything you see, we're going to own you," he said breezily. "Or at least your vital organs, and you don't want to know what we'd do with the rest of you." "Do not fuck this up," Ryan said quietly, and Jon nodded almost before thinking about it. "Yes," he said. "I mean, no. I won't fuck it up. You can trust me." (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 5th, 2007
11:18 am	Reading Day Woes &fic Had my interview. It went well, but. I am plagued by doubts, yo. There is no sentence that cannot be made better by the addition of "yo." PLAGUED. It's beautiful. I'm listening to Bright Eyes because Colin Oberst OWNS MY SOUL, and this morning I read sevenfists' preschool teacher AU, Small Cells and Fibers. And it's pretty fabulous, so that was good. I'm going to go knit, now. (Comment on this)
Friday, November 30th, 2007
10:38 am	Wow. "There was an extremely macho vibe in that crowd, and we were practically the biggest cupcakes on that tour, but they seemed to love it. I think they just needed a little razzle dazzle in their lives." - Gerard Way RAZZLE DAZZLE. BIGGEST CUPCAKES. GERARD. *boggles* (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 28th, 2007
11:01 am	Music: The Strange 90s The Strange 90s ( notes ) 1. Steal My Sunshine - Len 2. Get Over It - Ok Go 3. Every Morning - Sugar Ray 4. Whatever (I Had a Dream) - Butthole Surfers 5. April 29th, 1992 - Sublime 6. Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen) - Baz Luhrmann 7. One Week - Barenaked Ladies 8. People Who Died - Jim Carroll Band 9. The Animal Song - Savage Garden 10. Pepper - Butthole Surfers DOWNLOAD ZIP (40MB) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 20th, 2007
12:39 am	Something like 10% of all transgender people are murdered. Tomorrow, November 20th, is Transgender Day of Remembrance. Memorial services and vigils will be held all over the country to remember those who have died. A list of this year's victims of anti-trans violence can be found here. A list that goes back to the early 90s is here. I just... encourage everyone to think about this tomorrow. Dwell a little. Let yourself realise the tragedy of it. This day breaks my heart every year. All of these so-fucking-brave people just dead for no reason and most of the time these murders remain unsolved. Because no one fucking cares, and after 40+ years of queer activism one of every ten trans person STILL can expect to die brutally and young and it makes me so angry. And so sad. For fellow AZ people: if you're interested in checking out the ASU memorial, let me know and I'll email you the info. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 16th, 2007
1:06 pm	Holiday Cards I'm bringing out the stencils and the spray paint, guys, making my holiday cards next weekend. Who wants one? Bearing in mind: If you're on my friends list, I probably LOVE YOU LIKE BURNING, even if we never talk, so PLEASE don't be afraid to speak up! Comment with your address and such. (comments are screened) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 13th, 2007
12:34 pm	Rape Tourism Did you know there is a rape tourism industry in the US? Read about it and the people who are doing something about it at the Pretty Woman Bird House here and here. ALSO, stubbleglittler is donating five dollars to The Pretty Women Bird House for everyone who signs up for Make the Yultide Gay and lets her know. If you've been waffling over this, now's the perfect time. (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 11th, 2007
4:44 pm	Music: Uploads Ani Difranco - Little Plastic Castle DOWNLOAD ZIP FILE (56MB) ( More Albums, Songs & Mixes ) (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 10th, 2007
8:14 pm	My Subconcious, My Uterus, Fic Rec: Bandslash: Interband So last night I had the strangest dream. I was in another country at some outdoor music festival/bullfighting thing [sort of like in Carmen? It was very odd.] wth my family, but my dad and his wife, and my mom and sisters werent there. I was walking down the steps of the weird arena that we were in, and realised that I was pregnant, and that that explained why I was feeling so weird and and crampy, and why my breasts had been sore for weeks. And I was kind of happy about it until I realised that I hadn't slept with anyone of the male persuasion, oh, EVER, and so my being pregnant was IMPOSSIBLE. And then there was some huge scandal, and I ended up meeting the guy who had raped me [but hadn't realised it? or something], and that's when my cramps woke me up. Oh, menstruation. I think my subconcious was on some sort of reproductive organs tangent or something. Also, why haven't more people read and never returned to drown again by daybreak25? It's amazing, as in mindblowing and wickedly cool, and wonderfully long. It's one of the most fabulously original concepts I've ever read. And there's angst, and puppies, and mysterious happenings, and cupcakes, and, and, and! You should read it. Stats: Pete/Patrick, Gerard/Frank, Joe, Andy, Ray, Bob, Jamia, random panic! cameo; 39,700 words, 7 chapters. ♥♥♥ (Comment on this)
Friday, November 9th, 2007
2:26 am	Query Bob Bryar as a girl = Amber Benson circa BTVS season four, y/y? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 7th, 2007
10:20 pm	Music: Ani Difranco: To The Teeth Ani Difrano - To The Teeth This is probably my favourite Ani Difranco album, which is maybe weird because it is very different from a lot of her other stuff [musically, not lyrically]. Sort of the way Dilate is pretty singular in terms of her work. But To The Teeth was the first Ani CD I bought, when I was 12 years old, and I listened to it so many times between then and when I got my first ipod that I wasn't able to rip it from the original disc, and had to download the tracks. DOWNLOAD ZIP (70MB) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
4:09 am	Music: [Don't] Wake Me Up Before You Go Go Challenge Mix For this week's burn_list challenge: [Don't] Wake Me Up Before You Go Go: The Music of Your Dreams ( Track List and Download ) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 31st, 2007
9:27 am	Music: Artists are Abstract Mix Artists are Abstract Mix I've been drawing for the past, eh, three days or so with itunes shuffle playing in the background. These are some songs that made me look up from my work. ( Track List & Download ) ALSO, Happy Halloween, Samhain, and early Dia De Los Muertos! (Comment on this)